In the same way I had learned with mediation, I became aware of the distraction and without placing too much attention or attachment on it, I gently let it pass. So, I sat myself down once again, this time prepared for the body’s reaction. There is was, it wanted to get away again. It wanted to move. Previously I would have stepped away, not knowing why, but now I was aware and I was going to stay where I was. I would become aware of the sensations in my body and allow them to pass.
#What’s your gift – Drop the baggage!
I wanted the answer now. I wanted the pain to end. I wanted to know what path to take. I wanted a sign. I wanted to know what my future held. I wanted to feel joy again. I wanted an end to the misery of not knowing. I simply wanted a crystal ball into the future which would allow me to see what it took to make me happy, because I hadn’t a clue how to do that for myself!